I’m Sick and Tired of All These Trials!

Hello Mike,

I know there is always someone else in a worse situation than me, but I can see why some people put a bullet in their head when life becomes overwhelming. I am so stressed out. I just cannot seem to get even a little ahead. What I do get is immediately taken from me. My stress is financial. I feel like a complete failure. I know what it is like to have much, and now I’m on my way to having nothing. I am sick and tired of the constant bombardment of trials. I am down and out mentally, probably on the verge of depression. One thing I see for sure is the part in the ‘Our Father’ prayer…Give us our daily bread. I guess that must mean just enough to make it through the day; not knowing where your next meal will come from?

I sell insurance and am on a commission base only. Take joy when experiencing trials? – I think not. I have NO joy, NO peace, NO rest. If this is what one must go through to be an elect, I’d rather not be one. I feel angry at God. It seems like at times there is a light at the end, and right when you think you will reach it, God snuffs it out.

Giving false hope to a person who is down and out is a TERRIBLE thing to do! I know what I’m saying certainly does not match up with scripture. I’m just saying that I’m sick and tired of this, and I don’t want to do it anymore. What makes it worse is that, as you and I both know, it doesn’t matter what I’m sick of because God is in control of everything down to the millisecond, which means he is causing me to send you this email.

Thanks for listening,

D____

Hi D____,

I am very sorry to hear all of this, and I only wish I could make it all go away. However, I cannot, and I can’t even give you the strength to endure these trials. I can honestly tell you that I identify with what you are going through, and I can let you know that I do care and that I am praying for you.

As you already know, we are not to expect to avoid trials, but are rather to endure them with patience. I know you have plainly stated that your patience is exhausted, and I understand that completely. Nevertheless, exhausted patience does not exhaust the trial, and the best thing we can say is, “Though God slay me, I will trust him.”

Job 13:15 Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him.

It is the last part of that verse that must be burned out of us all. Once we come to the point that we can say with Job, “I am vile, I will speak no further”, only then will our trials begin to subside. They cannot do so until that time, or they will not have accomplished a thing.

Job 40:1 Moreover the LORD answered Job, and said,
Job 40:2 Shall he that contendeth with the Almighty instruct him? he that reproveth God, let him answer it.
Job 40:3 Then Job answered the LORD, and said,
Job 40:4 Behold, I am vile; what shall I answer thee? I will lay mine hand upon my mouth.
Job 40:5 Once have I spoken; but I will not answer: yea, twice; but I will proceed no further.
Job 40:6 Then answered the LORD unto Job out of the whirlwind, and said,
Job 40:7 Gird up thy loins now like a man: I will demand of thee, and declare thou unto me.
Job 40:8 Wilt thou also disannul my judgment? wilt thou condemn me, that thou mayest be righteous?

Our trials are God’s judgment.

I hope you have been able to read the Job series. The book of Job is the practical application of the book of Revelation. We learn to be righteous only through God’s judgments upon us and upon our haughty spirits. I know because I have been and am being judged by God.

Isa 26:9 With my soul have I desired thee in the night; yea, with my spirit within me will I seek thee early: for when thy judgments are in the earth, the inhabitants of the world will learn righteousness.
Isa 26:10 Let favour be shewed to the wicked, yet will he not learn righteousness: in the land of uprightness will he deal unjustly, and will not behold the majesty of the LORD.

So I know what you are enduring, and it is my prayer to our Lord that He will simply grant you to give up on this life, so that He can come and live His life within you. The “old man… first man Adam” within us all “will not behold the majesty of the Lord” and will be destroyed. It is a painful experience which cannot be avoided, but when it has completed its work, there is joy that comes with the peace of mind that knows that all we now want is whatever God wants for us. This is not a bad thing. It is a “great and marvelous” work which brings us to repentance.

Rev 15:1 And I saw another sign in heaven, great and marvellous, seven angels having the seven last plagues; for in them is filled up the wrath of God.

Rom 2:4 Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance?

You are speaking to me of “His goodness”, and this is a very great blessing. Our trials are “His goodness”, and it is “His goodness” which leads us to repentance.

Psa 107:21 Oh that men would praise the LORD for his goodness, and for his wonderful works to the children of men!
Psa 107:22 And let them sacrifice the sacrifices of thanksgiving, and declare his works with rejoicing.
Psa 107:23 They that go down to the sea in ships, that do business in great waters;
Psa 107:24 These see the works of the LORD, and his wonders in the deep.
Psa 107:25 For he commandeth, and raiseth the stormy wind, which lifteth up the waves thereof.
Psa 107:26 They mount up to the heaven, they go down again to the depths: their soul is melted because of trouble.
Psa 107:27 They reel to and fro, and stagger like a drunken man, and are at their wits’ end.
Psa 107:28 Then they cry unto the LORD in their trouble, and he bringeth them out of their distresses.
Psa 107:29 He maketh the storm a calm, so that the waves thereof are still.
Psa 107:30 Then are they glad because they be quiet; so he bringeth them unto their desired haven.
Psa 107:31 Oh that men would praise the LORD for his goodness, and for his wonderful works to the children of men!

God brought me to my wits’ end, and He brought me through that ‘end’. He will do the same for you.

Mat 10:22 And ye shall be hated of all men for my name’s sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved.

You are in my fervent prayers.

God bless you,

Mike